I blew my lid. I was a bad mom and called my ex a bad name to my kids.
Once again it got back to me (thru the kids just choosing to tell me) that he blames me and my household for the girls having had colds and my eldest having a case of ringworm. Once again hubby and I are portrayed as dirty irresponsible people. This isn't the case at all and the ex hasn't even ever been in my home to know diddly-squat. He does know that I keep my house cleaner and more sanitized than his but that's not what it's about (logic would tell you that usually kids get sick from other kids at school...or even him and his household). I know he just wants to convince the girls that I/hubby/our household is BAD BAD BAD. For 5 years I've put up with this (since we split up and since getting remarried) and I simply told the girls "no, that's not the case sweetie(s)" calmly and without saying bad things about him. Heck, when my eldest caught him smoking pot and tells me about the drinking he does I don't demonize him...I talk directly to him. So, today I finally just snapped. Yeah, I do think he pushed me to be angry but *I* chose to call him a name within the girls' earshot.
I feel angry and guilty at the same time. I just wish he'd let me run my house the way I see fit and if sees problems talk to ME not the kiddos. I wish I hadn't let myself snap, I wish I were a better person and no so...human.
Once again it got back to me (thru the kids just choosing to tell me) that he blames me and my household for the girls having had colds and my eldest having a case of ringworm. Once again hubby and I are portrayed as dirty irresponsible people. This isn't the case at all and the ex hasn't even ever been in my home to know diddly-squat. He does know that I keep my house cleaner and more sanitized than his but that's not what it's about (logic would tell you that usually kids get sick from other kids at school...or even him and his household). I know he just wants to convince the girls that I/hubby/our household is BAD BAD BAD. For 5 years I've put up with this (since we split up and since getting remarried) and I simply told the girls "no, that's not the case sweetie(s)" calmly and without saying bad things about him. Heck, when my eldest caught him smoking pot and tells me about the drinking he does I don't demonize him...I talk directly to him. So, today I finally just snapped. Yeah, I do think he pushed me to be angry but *I* chose to call him a name within the girls' earshot.
I feel angry and guilty at the same time. I just wish he'd let me run my house the way I see fit and if sees problems talk to ME not the kiddos. I wish I hadn't let myself snap, I wish I were a better person and no so...human.
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