Oxygen...love your blog...how does one subscribe?
I have to flip some switches I think. I have everything blocked so maybe I'll open it up. Blogger drives me nuts! oops
Oxygen...love your blog...how does one subscribe?
@Oxygen and Nancy - do you prefer to be alone or would you like to have a relationship? Just curious...... And Nancy, are you bipolar also?
I'm afraid if I didn't have my husband to anchor me I would go out of my mind sometimes. He didn't really understand depression until we met. We've been married five years now and he understands it a lot more after watching what I go through. At first he was one of those who thought you could just think positive thoughts and change. I wanted to strangle him then and we almost split up over it. He now understands more about it being a chemical imbalance that I can't control. I don't think you can really understand something until you go through it yourself but at least he tries. He will talk me though lots of things or just hold me if that is what I need. I feel very lucky to be with him. Sometimes though I crave to just be left alone. He has a harder time with that but is getting better at accepting it.
(((Oxygen))) I am sorry you brother isn't there for you. I hope you have a reliable group of friends to lean on.
(((Oxygen))) I am sorry you brother isn't there for you. I hope you have a reliable group of friends to lean on.
@Oxygen and Nancy - do you prefer to be alone or would you like to have a relationship? Just curious...... And Nancy, are you bipolar also?
I'm afraid if I didn't have my husband to anchor me I would go out of my mind sometimes. He didn't really understand depression until we met. We've been married five years now and he understands it a lot more after watching what I go through. At first he was one of those who thought you could just think positive thoughts and change. I wanted to strangle him then and we almost split up over it. He now understands more about it being a chemical imbalance that I can't control. I don't think you can really understand something until you go through it yourself but at least he tries. He will talk me though lots of things or just hold me if that is what I need. I feel very lucky to be with him. Sometimes though I crave to just be left alone. He has a harder time with that but is getting better at accepting it.
Glad to see this thread being updated. I hope everyone's day is going well and I appreciate the link to your blog, oxygen.
Unfortunately for me, I've had a relapse into depression. My meds have been changed and I'm having a hard time with the side effects, as well as the increased cost of intensive care. My graduation date that was set for this December has been moved back to next May. Some of my family members are supportive of this idea, others, not so much. I'm pretty upset about it myself since I only had a month and a half to go, but I know that realistically, I can't successfully complete five classes when I'm dealing with depression. Hell, with my current medication cocktail, I've apparently lost the basic ability to spell. For a college senior, that's been pretty embarrassing. I wish hand-written essays had spell check.
Well, that blows. I can still spell but Lithium makes my hands tremor. People used to ask me if I got drunk the night before. Well, haven't been drunk in 30 years.
Sorry your studies got put aside but we know better than others what's required. Kind of hard to study and get to class averaging 16 hours of sleep a day. Only waking up a few hours to hate ourselves then back to bed.
Yeah, I'm not sure which of the meds are messing with my head, but it's probably a combination of them. I woke up one day and my arm hurt really bad and was bruised. I complained about it for two days before someone reminded me that I'd had a flu shot. I feel like I'm losing it.
You mentioned sleeping a lot. With previous episodes of depression I would sleep almost all day, but for some reason, this one is different. I can't sleep. I fall asleep for maybe an hour, then wake up and stay awake the rest of the night. It adds to the hours of feeling miserable. I think I preferred the sleeping-all-day version.
My doc mentioned trying me out on lithium after the depression is taken care of. Her reasoning is that I've been on lamictal (a mood stabilizer), for months and it didn't prevent the depression. I think the last time she mentioned starting me on lithium, she said it would be easier if I stayed in a hospital for a while so they could find the right dosage. Did you have to do anything like that?
That's bizarre. Hear something new everyday. Besides, Lithium treats or augments other meds to treat depression. Why wait to start it? I take Lithium, Clonazepam, Seroquel, Lamictal, and Adderall right now. It keeps me busy.
I wouldn't recommend Seroquel to you unless nothing could make you sleep. 25 mg and you wake up in time for Christmas.
Are they talking psych ward or hospital? I've never heard that said anywhere. Never hurts to ask them why.
That's bizarre. Hear something new everyday. Besides, Lithium treats or augments other meds to treat depression. Why wait to start it? I take Lithium, Clonazepam, Seroquel, Lamictal, and Adderall right now. It keeps me busy.
I wouldn't recommend Seroquel to you unless nothing could make you sleep. 25 mg and you wake up in time for Christmas.
Are they talking psych ward or hospital? I've never heard that said anywhere. Never hurts to ask them why.
The name Seroquel just makes it sound like a sleep med.
Aren't most psych wards part of a hospital these days? So having a hospital stay for psychiatric reasons, you'd be in the psych ward, just as if you were having a baby you'd be in the baby-popping-out ward. Though I guess it depends on your location and state. Some states don't have the space or facilities for designated psychiatric treatment. So, mental patients might just be mixed in with chemo people and tumor patients and whatnot.
This all is in the general e-smoking section, so I take it anyone can read this stuff, whereas there is a designated section on ECF for mental people (Wellness Wrecked and Bonkers), and I think there it's more restricted to actual ECF users (and there's even sections that you need a separate password to access). I can understand the 'making-it-out-in-the-open' and 'breaking-stigmas' and everything, believe you me. But this being the Internets and all, public searches, personal identities, and blah blah blah. I dunno. Guess anything anywhere can be made public and used against you.
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I totally get the need to be alone. With 4 kids I have to make myself available, but at the same time if I really need some alone time, I can get it thanks to my wife. She takes on a lot because I struggle sometimes just getting out of bed. But, she needs alone time too, just not as much. So, thankfully my wife gets it and I make sure she get out away from us too. As far as getting the mental illness, she tries. She gets bad PMS, so she sorta understands moods and thoughts being uncontrollable due to chemicals being out of whack. She just has to remind herself that I go through it every day all day. I'm on Lamictal, Abilify, and Clonazepam. The first 2 have been life savers for me. I still have depression and rare manic episodes, but overall life is much much better than 5 yrs ago when I was in mixed states almost all the time, suicidal and out of control. My wife stuck with me though.
Wow that much seroquel would give me a vacation from life for about a week (sounds tempting actually lol), I hear you about the anxiety, I would rather be depressed than constant panic attacks. Hope you can get it figured out.
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