So another two weeks and the pattern repeated. Not surprising since I didn't really change anything. My two week barrier.
Details: Friday was a bad work day, lots of stress and what not. Couldn't vape enough and had that itch, I summed it up as stress. Saturday I felt edgy and had the itch, I just fought it off; summed it up as a crummy, groggy day. I did realize the itch was returning during this... getting stronger. Today, Sunday, was feeling a need to do something about it. Few hours after waking up, after breakfast, lunch cooking..... I loaded up 24mg, Vaped it hard.. And tried to relax... Like 3ml in less than an hour. Felt no real change, maybe a faint Haziness, nothing else. Itch still there, still on edge. So I ordered some 36mg juice. Then was about to order some wta juice, then decided I would try snus instead, questions about that towards end.
So, expecting an experiment was due (ok I took the easy road and fell off the wagon), I lit up a smoke.
So the weird thing is that lately when I wake up in the morning I feel no real need/desire to vape, feel like I don't need it. However with the fear of having serious urge or need later, I get going on the juice.... Which I seem to be able to do all day at whatever pace.... If I go several hours I get a twitch and will either vape like mad, or will stealth vape a few puffs... Either way I am then good to go for a while. (I think it is more the need to get away from whatever situation, place, people or whatever than a need to get nicotine per say..... But I haven't attempted giving up the vaping.... I view it as a crutch. But the crutch is a bit short and not completely supportive for me. Though I logically understand that I am addicted to nicotine.). I certainly prefer to vape a lot, being in a situation where vaping is not an option is not enjoyable at all. But whatever I am rambling and just ignore that last bit. I like vaping and it has cut the stinkies from 40/day to one every two weeks.... Brilliant.
So the one cigarette took the edge off, shortly after that one smoke I was feeling okay. Edge gone, no real feelings except regret and disappointment of that one smoke.... But I digress. If I go the rest of my life at two cigs a month.... Almost perfect. But that edginess sure would be nice to get rid of. (Holy cow ECF logged me out and lost my post when I went to preview, rewriting now). (I just ordered some wta juice). That stinky itself wasn't enjoyable by the way, but after affects were/are now... Calm.
Question:
Swedish snus is what I want right? Like generals from a smoke shop..... Not camel snus from 7-eleven?
I have always been anti dipping and chewing, so using snus won't be real welcome to me, but I will give it a go anyway. I just want off the stinkies completely... Without the two week twitch. Good news is I believe I am good to go for a while before the twitch returns.