OK - who are the Mavericks out there? Rebels, unite!
I had no idea this day was upon us, until after bragging (whilst non-stop chain-vaping in my office) to coworkers that I'd put out my last cig 11/17/10 at 11:59pm. One of the analog-toters proclaimed, how perfect! Today is the National Smoke Out Day!
Since the first Smoke Out Day, I've always been bombarded by well-meaning non-smokers and irritating ex-smokers to NOT smoke on that day. As if it were that easy. I always joked, that I was going to smoke twice as much that day.
Still, remembering the years of scorn and feelings for all those years, I was NOT about to let MY day be associated with this day. This day had absolutely NOTHING to do with my choice to not be a smoker today. It was pure coincidence that I was finishing up the last pack in my possession last night.
So, yes, out of pure rebellion I bummed a Marlboro Ultra Light (at least the "not spent" part of my banner remains untarnished LoL) from a cow-orker! I did not 'crave' it, I did not have the feelings that I "needed" it either. I didn't even necessarily "want" it (as I have coded many of my analogs smoked in my spreadsheet the last 2 weeks). It was a rebellious gesture to keep this day MINE, and not part of this national day of everyone telling us what to do! hehehe I held onto that analog until I had another cow-orker to enjoy it with, another rebel at work who is not, and has no desire to become, a non-smoker.
Sure, I smoked it, but it was more out of a lifetime of anger at people being "in my business" "telling me what I can/can't do" than out of a desire, need or want of the analog.
Nope, it didn't taste great, but I didn't cough/gag yet like a first-time smoker. I'm not changing my "quit date/time" for tracking purposes (geez, its only about 12 hours off), and heck - I didn't spend a penny on it. It was not smoked for any reason other than to go against the grain on this day, heheh.
I just reveled in the fact that, "see, you can NOT tell this woman what she can/can't/shouldn't do!" and hence, took MY day back. Thankfully, I have been just fine the rest of the day. Sure, there's moments of habitual heading or reaching for one, and a pang here and there, but I've remained a non-smoker!