Man! I'll tell ya, this happens EVERY TIME. As soon as I even think about trying to quit smoking, I end up smoking even more cigarettes. I'm up to nearly 2 packs a day now. What's up with that? I really wish I could just forget about them altogether. I guess my problem is that I'm a high-strung person and when I try to quit, I become almost hyper, practically jumping out of my skin. Speaking of skin, I have some weird skin condition to where when I get highly aggravated, I break out in a rash or get welts or hives easily. I've lost jobs because of it before. For whatever reason, Claritin seems to have eliminated that problem for the most part. I only discovered that Claritin works about 12 years ago. A dermatologist said I have overactive histamines....guess that's why I never get sick, but it certainly doesn't help to quit smoking.
Speaking of jobs, I still haven't found one. Dozens upon dozen upon dozens of apps filled out and no one calls...sigh. If I could just get my foot in the door, they would find out that I'm a better worker than 99% of their current workforce. I always am. Part of my being a high-strung person I guess. I may have to check my own background to see if my younger brother's certified psycho-wife is up to her tricks again. She's done it before. I'm wondering if these places I've applied to do a background check and see something (that SHE did) in my name, attached to my background checks. I know my brother had to answer a bunch of questions relating to her when he tried to order something online from a specific place a couple of months ago. We don't even let that nut near our house because of stuff like that. But I digress into personal matters.
One thing I don't understand is why don't cigarette stores ever carry any vaping stuff besides that ripoff Fuma deal? It's still essentially the same thing as cigarettes, just a lot safer, you know? They'd make a killing if they carried some of the refillable kinds of vaping goodies. You'd think a place who's whole business is smoking would carry vaping supplies as a matter of course. Seems like a huge missed opportunity on their part. It would be a lot easier for me to get into vaping if I could just go somewhere local and get the stuff I need.
I'm not sure what level of nicotine I want to start with for vaping. The Fuma deal I have will make me feel sick if I hit it as many times as a real cig, so it's obviously of higher strength than I need. In real cigs, I smoke roll-your-own. I buy the Gambler Pipe tobacco in the mellow variety. Their full flavor one would choke anyone to death. Even though it says it's pipe tobacco, it doesn't have any cigar-like smell or anything, it just tastes like normal cigarettes, but it's the least expensive tobacco I can find. And I mean like almost half the price of other roll-your-own varieties. I'm to a point with smoking where taste doesn't really matter that much anymore, just as long as it satisfies my craving. And it's the drag on the cig that I miss when trying to quit. That's where vaping comes in. But lack of funds and local availability is preventing me from getting started with vaping.
Good to know those Fuma carts can be refilled. Thanks for the tip.
